12, 24, 27, 32, 33, 36, 41, 42, 47, 49

12: Have you pretended to like someone? This is like the ultimate douchebag question. Yeah, one time I did. I was in a bad place mentally and she made me feel good about myself, so when she said she liked me, I lied and said I liked her too. Eventually, I developed feelings for her, but it was still douchey and I wish I never did that. 

24: Are you good at hiding your feelings? Unless it’s late at night, I want you to know, or I’m feeling incredibly bad, you won’t know. 

27: Are you listening to music right now? Nope.

32: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? Emily hugged me last night. 

33: What do people call you? Starbucks, because I’m every white girl’s dream. Just kidding, nobody calls me that. I just thought it was clever. I go by a lot of things: Matthew, Matt, Matty, Mattie(If you’re Emily), Matticus. I don’t know. Call me whatever you want. 

36: What are you listening to right now? Parks and Rec. 

41: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused/waiting for the unexpected? Currently single. My heart wants something a little different, but thats alright. I’ll change that when the right time comes. 

42: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? My mom bought it for me last week. Cool right? 

47: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? Yes. My life in Canada was beautiful. Not that I don’t like life now, but there was a lot more security and clarity then. 

49: Have you ever been to New York? Not yet. 


38: Love really is a beautiful thing huh? There’s nothing more enrapturing. It’s such a simple word, but it has more meaning and depth than probably anything else. It holds our universe together. Without love, I don’t think this would be worth it. 


2: Do you miss anyone? I miss a great many people. I miss my Canadian family. I miss Diego. We used to be best friends and I hardly know anything about who he is now. I miss Morgan. It hurts when dear friends die. I miss my Uncle Derek. He gave his time to me and changed my entire life by the way he loved me. I wish I could have had more time with him before that car accident. 

10: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? Maybe a long time ago. But there came a time when I realized how important love really is and if I’m giving it out, I’m gonna mean it. Now, I’m not one of those people who reserves those three words for rare occasions. I say “I love you” to many people quite often. But I mean it every single time. I would give my last breath or all the time in the world for those people. If I tell you that I love you, even in a light, playful moment, I mean those words deeply and sincerely. 

18: Hold hands with anyone this week? Held hands with anyone these last 18 years? Nope. 

43: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Never kissed someone, and I don’t regret that. 

50: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? I think it was my Dad. He loves me intensely. 

1, 5, 14, 15, 28, 30, 34, 39!

1: What would you name your future daughter? Seeing as I want a bunch of daughters, there will be a bunch of names. But I’d like to name my first daughter Daija. I used to work with a little girl named Daija and it’s largely because of her that I want to be a dad, she helped me fall in love with kids. 

5: What are you looking forward to in the next week? Fright Night! It’s the first time I’ve been put in charge of a Campus Life event and it’s really exciting since I’m one of the youngest staff members. I just really hope it goes wonderfully! 

14: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? I am quite fortunate in that there is more than one person. My dad, Connor, my cousin Jace, and the entire group of Campus lifers. 

15: Is it hard for you to get over someone? Yes. I tend to put too much of my heart into things. 

28: What is something you currently want right now? In n out. 

30: How is your heart lately? Indecisive. Happy, sad, nostalgic. 

34: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? Sometimes things are best left unsaid, even when it hurts. 

39: Do you make wishes at 11:11? Noooo. As fun as wishing is, it doesn’t change anything. 

I was just looking at pictures on Instagram. It was a picture of four of my old friends. And then I realized they took that picture together a few hours before the car crash that killed two of them. Death comes so quickly and unexpectedly.


  1. You don’t need a husband/wife to prove that you are valuable
  2. You don’t need a spouse to do ministry (look at Jesus and Paul)
  3. Your entire purpose in life is not to have a husband/wife
  4. If you pray for a spouse, God will probably give one to you, so stop worrying (Genesis 2:18)
  5. Don’t let your want/need for a spouse overtake your want/need for God
  6. Be content with your singleness. Thank God for every day.